hmm....being envious...

assalamualaikum...
okay... here i am, again~
it's 12.25 am...and i'm not sleeping yet...it's been a routine now (burning the midnight oil just to be in front of my beloved lappy, doing nothing important..)in other words---> LAGHA!
ok merepek.. hee.. ;)
just read someone's blog.. and her blog is just GREAT.. like she got everything a reader wanted to read i guessed.. with the tazkirah, beneficial articles, her nice way of narrating her story life... hmm... i'm green of envy now... seriously, memang jeles betul ngan orang yang pandai berkata-kata..that they can expressed their feelings well through writing or maybe conversation, and make the readers and the listeners clear of what they feel.. hmm... that's my major problems...got problems in expressing my feelings verbally..the complicated me!

I dont know why that these days i got easily jealous to those (girls only) that are perfect (in my view)... that they got everything that they want and a guy always wanted, pandai, alim, pretty and... yeah... you know what i mean... bile difikirkan balik....aku rase aku jahil gile these days...only these days...sebab aku rase selama ni aku ok je...(hubungan aku dgn Allah) haha... ok tetibe ... like i'm choosing to watch movie (KIL ^^) instead of joining the Usrah... having issues with kak shakirah dan sekutunye (akak yg sangat zuhud di mata aku...n maybe semua org) hee... ok... kak hakirah sememangnya tak salah kat sini... ye lah... akak tu alim kot... then, bergaduh(berperang mulut sebenarnya) dengan my one and only elder sister, terasa sgt biadap sebenarnya bila berperang mulut ngan akak seorang ni... -.- glad and relieved that she (along) called me this evening, sounds pretty nice...having a nice conversation as if we're not arguing before.. haha... air dicincang tak kan putus... really...i can admit that this is FACT..

Jadi, as for the conclusion here...
aku rase aku macam kurang bersyukur dengan segala pemberian yang Maha Esa kini...dan tak tahu lah kenapa..tapi aku selalu semacam anti ngan org2 yg alim sgt ni...yes mereka sememangya baik dan musimah sejati... but sometimes, i just dont think that they are spreading dakwah in a right way... diorang ni kadang2 macam memaksa pon ade... same je macam kakak aku yg sorang tu...haish... ok enough... again i'm babbling about things that i shouldnt... hehe...
really need jah (my forever BADAR), my sahabat, that always brings me to the right path , to Jannah In Sha Allah...
Jah...lame gile kau cuti...rindu doh... jangan biarkan aku terkontang kanting sorang2 kat sini...

Always remembering myself to buka minda, buka hati, dengar each and everyone's opinion..
Hope to be a better muslimah one day...amiin... :')

p/s: sorry if my english's sucks...naahh...i'm still learning...
ceh..bajet ramai readers and followers je.. haha... k fine... :(

Btw, keep looking up, there maybe a rainbow waiting for you ^_^. gotta sleep now sbb esok ade plan baik punya...haha..nak masak carbonara.. hehe.. nite.. assalamualaikum :)

My First!

Assalamualaikum ..
wow..like seriously...i'm here now... yeah ..here... finally...
It never crossed my mind that I would do such things... heee.... having blog...hmm.... The enthusiasm starts when we're actually managing the 'blog' (cant mention that blog...hee) meant for that computer subject.
so, done with all that feelings... *pretty much excited now*

Just know that i dont want to lose all that precious things that i had with all my besties in primary school, secondary, or maybe in this pre university and definitely for the up coming life of me.... i dont have that video cam or even a camera with me most of the time to record and capture all the great things that i have with them(my family, friends, and all of the people).

Gotta say that... sedih sangat bile sedar yang sebenarnya cara aku berkawan tak macam org lain.. like, i actually forget all the great things that i had had in primary school...and maybe lower form jugak...
I guess that i'm nobody's best friend... never exist in their school-greatest- memory...

So now aku harap aku dapat jadi someone dalam hidup diorang..
Baiklah... cukuplah dengan cerita sedih untuk malam ni... got many things to write actually.. but,, naahh.. im not that good in expressing my feelings... heee... ^^
Smile always kay... ;)