Well mine was a bit messy here and there. I bet this is because ... No. I actually have no reason for that. The thing is, I am too damn lazy to move my ass and everything seems to be such a drag for me. Urgh. Perhaps I need to do some working or intern or jadi cikgu tuisyen sementara kat taman or be a little more useful kat rumah but burn... lambat sangat sedar kau juno. Semua tak menjadi cuti ni. Tup tup Air Asia dah panggil balik :( Sedih tau kene balik Bne cepat pastu hari tu balik Msia lambat. huhu. Tiket mahal *blames everyone*
Oh ya, last night after some Naruto Shipuuden(s), I did some muhasabah diri before tido. *Since it is already new year but I am still the same me*
I realized that there are so many things that I want to do in my whole life (this remaining years/months/weeks/days/hours/seconds). I want to better understand people thru research or in other words I want to be a successful researcher in my field, I want to be a fine teacher after that, I want to have my own organization that can better help the children in need especially in education, I want to be a tailor so that I can own all of those pretty dresses and tops in my dreams, I wish to own a cafe for my parents that at the same time can provide jobs to everyone who needs it, I want make my parents happy and I wish to be a better servant of Allah (yeah, I know that this one might seem a lil bit vague).
The thing is, how can I be more persistent in achieving these?? I bet every failed resolution caused by this penyakit "banyak sangat gebang usaha sikit dan malas dan lembik dan urgh"
Therefore dear juno, whatever it is please please please keep on pursuing your 'whatev' goals seriously and persistently. You dont go living in the dreams forever. Living the dreams instead. Make 'em happen. Bcs you dont wanna forever live in 'genjutsu' rite?
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| I miss home, I miss them, I miss her so much I can cry huhu |
