Makin menginjak dewasa ni (dewasa ke?) Juno makin teruk emotion management. She's no longer a Hatake Kakashi. Who's always rational, cool (damn cool), prioritizes his mission over love (in my case, it should be study over this hormonal and hopeless feelings lah kan). Come on Juno. You are so sooo much better than this. Seriusly guys, no. No, you should never 'layan perasaan' or 'mengeluh' cuz syaitan will always try 'his'(yep, a bit sexist here luls) very best to drive you to negativity and those overthinking and bad things and finally to hell.
Like really. You know what is the similarity between sakura and yourself (I mean, myself)? You are both useless IF you dont get up and fight ! Prove that you are stronger than this. Cuz juno macguff and haruno sakura are both the kind of person who would have gotten up 7 times when they fell 6 times. What doesnt kill you makes you stronger gurlzz. zzz.
But seriously. What had happened lately wears me down. I feel like giving up each day. I havent get any reply from the potential researchers yet, plus the requirements are so overwhelming reckon I could have gone crazy just thinking about it. I am so passionate on participating in this year's winter research cmon guys (cuz I didnt get to join summer research last year). I need yall to respond to my emails! Please.
AND, Kim just texted me, asking for my email address, so that he/she could send me the quote to repair his/her bumper. God. Patut ke haritu tak payah tinggal nombor phone pon kat kereta dia, sikit je pun scratch (rite..?) tapi nanti macam tak jujur pulakkan dah langgar bumper kereta orang, tapi kau bukan mampu sangat pon nak bayar cost repair DUA bumper kereta orang juno!! aaaaaaa ! I am so done :((( There goes my savings, my money (i meant MARA's). Help. Help. I need some mental support here. Sesiapa baik hati, juno needs some more stocks of drugs (she meant, chocs) to get this through. (ye, sedar jugak takde org baca pon blog ni so saja nak merepek huahua).
And, the pressure of being a third year student pon sama naik dah ni kan, hm. Berlawan-lawan nampaknya masalah ni dahagakan perhatian. *cries* Mental breakdown wont get you anywhere but.. Why. Why cant I escape from this reality and be back just after every single thing fits perfectly at its place. aaaa sedihnya.... D:
Ya Allah Ya Allah tolong Nurizzati ni.
*Back to business *
p/s: doakan juno dpt offer winter research guys. plus, moga semua dipermudahkan.
