31/12/2013

Balik Kampung

So what's the big deal of balik kampung anyway? This time, it's different.
I finally met my 'real' nenek and atok (ibu's parents) after 15 years last Tuesday. I dunno, maybe 15 maybe 16 or 17 yrs back then. Bcs ibu told me that I have met nenek when I was a kid. I not quite remember that but all I could vividly remember was, me chasing geese at the backyard of nenek's house. That's all.
Sadis bukan..?

Kteorg tak penah sangka dapat pegi sini dan tak pernah tahu pon ini rumah nenek kat sini..

Alhamdulillah, dia masih sihat n accept kedatangan kteorg.
Selama ni tengok wajah ni kat gambar lama je. At last ada depan mata
:')

I held his cold hand and said "Atok, ni cucu atok..". Paused. I just stood beside him, held his hand, tight. Failed to continue my words bcs i could feel a big lump in my throat. Sedih sangat.. He got blurred vision, barely able to speak but he could hear me well. Ni first time jumpa dia. Tak pernah tahu pon keadaan dia dah tenat sangat selama ni. And yes, he dont even know that we'd exist in this world all this while. The cruelest fact that I have to admit :'/

It's good to see them back together again.

Masuk je perkarangan rumah ni, we know that nenek memang rajin gila.
Macam rumah dalam taman. Semua jenis pokok ade.

I dunno.. She's really excited to be there. btw, this was her first time meeting nenek and atok.

Seeing them, I literally forgave them for what they did to Ibu all this while.

Tetibe macam terfikir lah kan.. kan seronok kalau dari dulu lagi kiteorang dah ade kat sini. Beraya rumah atok nenek tiap tahun. Tbh, nak sebut nenek pon sebenarnya awkward gila. Tak pernah aku panggil sesiapa pon nenek sebelum ni sebab nenek belah abah kami panggil atok instead of nenek.

Cuma ada satu persoalan yg sampai sekarang tak terjawab and remain as mystery.. 

"why did u abandoned Ibu when she's still a baby, nek?" "kenapa tak pernah nak ambil tahu pasal kami selama ni?" we're still your family right??

*sigh*