Why me?

Hi bloggie,
Lemme rant once again and get annoyed pls.
So ive been telling you millions of sad stories (of mine) lately. For that, I am really sorry. At this point, I cant really cry anymore.Things happened and I cant really run from it.
I felt sorry to myself. I promised myself to not cry if the guy I (always) wished to stay, finally leaves me. I was so dumb. I shouldnt hv cried. I wished someone could slap me or something. But I guess my heart just couldnt help it. Although my brain was strong enough, I couldnt help thinking about it. Stunned and shaken up still.
Been waiting wishfully, quietly and been saving my soul for him for almost three years. yep, I guess this is one of the reasons why. Well, I somehow feel betrayed. Pity you juno, cuz you have been fooled way too easily. I guess I am always everyone's second option anyway. You are so used to this juno. Yes you are.
And you should have listened to your sister's advice. So it's all your fault too. Fairy tales dont work on you kid. haha.
But deep inside, I still think that what he's done as wrong and a liltle bit harsh too. Sometimes I wish I wasnt a part of the TGBians, and so that we never know each other. Oh well everyone doesnt seem to care abt what you think and how you feel anyway juno. Silly me.

Well, let's just forgive and forget like you always did juno. You are one strong girl anyway. And after all, you should love yourself more than anyone else. And at least you know that people change, a man like him exists and hati manusia cepat berubah. That's a bit unfair tho bcs Ive been so loyal all this while. Hm. Mungkin kene lebih hati kering lagi lepas ni. Haha.

At the moment, I am a bit worried abt myself cuz everything doesnt seem to interest me and my appetite is worsening. And my salt intake is increasing each day :( aaa I cant help myself. Halp.
Urgh please dont fall sick yet dear self. You have so much to do.
Anyways, I am glad that I am able to concentrate on assignments and being able to control my emotion still, when I am with my friends.
Nevertheless, I feel blessed to know these beautiful souls of mine :) Thanks my little angels you guys are like the best thing that happen in my life.

Till we meet again.