Assalamualaikum and Hello again dearest Bloggie!
It's finally the end of 2017! WOW! (Well less than 2 hours from now still).
Cant believe I am finally employed and most importantly managed to make time to update wemji sistur so :") I mean Ive been blogging as a carefree (?), nah always worried-about-assignments-and-presentations-and-graduating student but now, I'm someone's employee like someone's finally hired me and entrust me with doing something important! Sorry, I still cant fully brain the fact that I'm carrying this massive (em I just have to exaggerate kahkah) responsibility on my petite shoulders. Yall know I dont like (I wouldnt say I hate now cuz Imma big girl) commitments! It's just been so very different this time. I mean, unlike being a student where you can skip class/lecture/tutorial whatever it is whenever you feel like to, this time around, with job/being an employee, you cant simply do that. Well if your acting skills is superb maybe you can take (read: fake) MC and not coming to work but deep down you know that you cant always do that right?
So yeah, my life has been as repetitive and as cruel and punishing as ever. God has tested me real hard on my very first job. Many has left and was planning to while I am struggling to keep surviving and sane. I made a new friend (a special one) just before I entered my working life. He's special cuz he's the very first guy that understands me even when I dont and discovered the real me. Sobs I'm so touched lol. But it seems like we're no longer.. close I'd say. Cuz we used to share our thoughts and our dreams and sadness, now we barely communicate or even know how's each other coping with life. I know it was my fault for creating such barrier between us but idk I sort of not gonna put 100% blame on myself. Life happens and life has really drowned me and I think he has other things to take care of too so yeah. I maybe just somebody he used to know now. huhu. It's sad I must say. Idk if I should move on now.
Despite all that, I am reaally grateful that I met amazing and kindhearted people at work. They have been supporting me when I was at my lowest, and have never even sighed whenever I seek their help. Like ever. I dont know what have I done to deserve such angels in my life. Huhu.
So I think I have a love-hate relationship with 2017. Like, 2017 was so punishing to me (cried a lottt this year) but 2017 was indeed the best teacher.
Okay la, malas nak type dah haha! LOL. I just hope 2018 gonna be a good one and I cant wait for a better me next year. Hoping for a lesser temporary people too. Pray for my job, pray for my jodoh guys kbai.
Finally, I hope to see myself in the next blog update hihi. I just dont have the time to write these days :/
Good night and Happy New Year to me myself and bloggie. yey Bye!
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