#RA 1

song that never gets old...

Goodbye to you my trusted friend,
We've known each other since we were nine or ten,
Together we've climbed hills and trees,
Learned of love and ABC,
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees.

Goodbye my friend it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and I'll be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had season in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
Goodbye papa please pray for me
I was the black sheep of the family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
Wonder how I got along

Goodbye Michelle my little one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
And every time that I was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground

Goodbye Michelle it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there

We had joy we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed, were just seasons out of time
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song, like the seasons have all gone...

SEASONS IN THE SUN.

the melody of this song somehow suits my emotions right now...

am i always a loser?

i wonder why is it always me.... oh ALLAH.. am i that strong... but i guessed didnt see it yet my Lord.. how strong am i ?? why is it me that u always choose to face these all?? sejak dulu lagi rasenye... black sheep of the family, that's me.. i knew it.. ibu pon pernah cakap yg aku memang yg paling low kat dalam adik beradik... how sad kan??  ok... sebak sejenak... siriyes.. hope to have someone that could lend me her shoulder right now...--->

                                                                   ini sangat aku.....

there go my short semester results...tak lepas pon 3.5... kurang 0.03 to reach that 3.5... mengape?? not like i ever wanted it to be... wanna scream my lungs out right now... with that bad result...

already told my mom, she said, "semua org pon result cam ni ke?" "tak pe lah, nak wat cemane dah usaha kan..." then, we keep it a secret, not gonna tell dad about this... #sadstory

 it get even worst when knowing one of my friend(a close close close friend of mine) got 4.00! others 3.80++ ... my world gets gloomy after that.. tak de bekalan elektrik terus... benar...
ya, tersangatlah sedih... kenape?? kenape?? rasenye aku dah cukup penat stay up... sedihnya hidup ini ya ALLAH.. mungkin aku tak patut ungkit semua ini... dan mungkin juga aku patut muhasabah diri...

but i can say that , i am glad to have friends like you guys...

that close close close friend of mine~
me: jgn tinggal saye sensorg kalau nak gi aussie tu...
sahabat : saya akan heret awak sekali, awak akan dpt tiket pegi aussie tu, pasti, kalau tak saya ikat awak kat kipas plane


rumate terchenta~
me : aku sedih ngan result aku...
rumate : jgn sedih2 ada org lagi besar dugaannya...

qila sahabatku~
me : qila, poiter aku menyedihkan...
qila : okayy la tu. kita sekarang fokus kat cgpa je. ignore je gpa tu. cgpa yg penting sebagai batu loncatan untuk kita fly... AYUH KITA BER-SUMMER PARADISEEE BAIIBYYY...
*qila memang cukup happening time ni...

then i came to a conclusion that...
ALLAH mungkin bagi setimpal dengan ape yg telah kite usahakan... aku redha...
ALHAMDULILLAH~ at least pointer aku masih lagi lepas nak fly... bersyukur... mungkin aku perlu kuat berusaha lagi... mungkin rezeki aku lambat sikit...berbeza dengan mereka... usaha hari tu juga mungkin belum cukup lagi... dan tak lupa juga mendekatkan diri kepada ALLAH.. perlu usaha LEBIH KUAT LAGI!!

semat di dalam hati....

i hope i can keep on moving... and study even harder, pray to ALLAH even even even harder... ALLAH, please guide me...

semoga, aku dan sahabat2ku dapat menjadi manusia yg berguna kepada ibubapa, keluarga dan ummah suatu hari nanti...

kite fly same2 ke australia tau sahabat2.... :') jgn biarkan sorang pon tak dapat tiket flight nanti..

NARUTO ! forever favourite...

i'm the number one fan of naruto !! jyeeaaahh.~~ naruto taught me everything ! loyalty, trustworthy, respect, love, and many mooooree... (u just have to watch naruto i guessed, then u'll know) *hehe

i'll never forget this one, "Ninja breaks the rule", Hatake Kakaishi .. deep mannn...truly deep....

lot more moral values in this story actually...

i'll never forget this pic, naruto always has this pic with him---->

touched me.... :')

my hero, cuz he's sooo cool.... --->

missing...

yeah.. those days have gone missing now, long long ago... and i've been missing all those days when everything are going perfectly as i wished... those days when there are no such things as facebook or twitter and games too.. ye aku rindu semua memori itu .....
when i was a kid (they say) ...............

when i was a kid...
aku tak pernah gi tadika, blaja kat rumah ngan ibu je.. #sadlife
mungkin ini menjadi salah satu faktor aku tak pandai bergaul after that..

when i was a kid...
suke sangat tgok cite detective conan, naruto, blues clues and totally spies... haha.. tgok ngan adik bradik.. time tu semua org tak masuk asrama lagi...

when i was a kid...
slalu gaduh ngan adik bawah aku ni... hisshh.. budak ni memang agak annoying... haha..

when i was a kid...
slalu gak dapat nombo satu skola pagi n petang... gehh... #bajet

when i was a kid...
tak pernah beraya rumah kawan2... sekarang pon.. sebab skola pagi n skola petang memang jaoh... pagi ikut abah.. which is memang jaoh dari rumah....petang kat taman kat rumah ni je...

when i was a kid...
femesss... haha.. ramai r gak dak laki minat ...<----ini sangat bajet... :p  sampai sanggup datang skola even demam sebab admire sorang budak ni... tapi sume dak skola petang...  zaman dolu dolu lah tapinye.. saya sekarang zuhud... gehhh..

when i was a kid...
after makan tengah hari mesti bace suratkhabar kat luar rumah...(school holidays only), sebab terikut ikut ngan abah... haha..baca suratkhabar adalah wajib suatu ketika dahulu..

when i was a kid...
aku percaya bulat2 bile ibu cakap aku anak angkat je... anak misi nora... misi is nurse.. sedih betul time tu... haha.. padahal muke ibu ngan aku memang sebijik! haha.. i was six at that time if i'm not mistaken...

when i was a kid....
hmmm.... memang banyaklah kalo nak cite sume ... bosan je kalo org bace nanti...  cehhh..bajet ramai je readers...

but seriously, the point that i want to stress here is... i miss those days sooooo muuucchhh....
everything has changed now... everything, me myself especially... and people around me too...
but i can say that my mom and dad, and my sisters, havent changed that much... they still the same person that i knew before... always be the person yang akan tunggu aku balik dari asrama (now pre uni) , always rindu aku, always nak spend mase ngan aku...aku je yg kadang kadang buta, tak nampak sume bende tu... ye, aku memang buta... dan aku harap aku tak buta lagi lepas ni...

mintak maaf semua....ibu, abah, along, kaksu, alis... diri ini memang kejam...