First Semester

Everything was pretty nice at the start though deep down I knew something bad(?) is going to happen in this house and among us.
Am still thinking of moving out, sooner or later. Even though we're pretty much coping well w each other. I am deeply touched and truly appreciate each second we spent together like best friends but still, you doesnt seem to be the one who could accompany me to the path of tarbiyyah and you doesnt seem to want to let me in for we can always get through this path together. But hey, still, aku tak alim pon heyyy, Serius. Iman turun naik jugak. Benda lagha kemain susah nak tinggal. (So far movie dah jarang gak hadap sebulan ada lah se muvie dua tengok tapi bila tak hadap laptop jadi hadap phone pulak most of the time guane --') Trust me, to take care of our iman is the hardest thing to do (I know this is lame and everyone know this, okay) I can never picture myself in tudung labuh like those akak usrah and I dont know if I can be like one in the future. I mean, they are super baik, dedicated to ummah etc (you know, akak usrah, diorang tak pernah berdosa bak kata matlufi luls)
Sorry, for that, I have to leave you. For the betterment InshaAllah.

Nahh I'm kidding. I can never leave this house. That is never easy. And so let's just face the music Juno. Leddo dis ! Let you be the light ! peduli lah hidup sendiri gelita pon kan. Like Musfirah said in her speech (Speaker Santai), "Kuncinya, cuba!" luls  ~('.'~) (~'.')~ ~('.'~) (~'.')~

More in 1st semester: Laptop rosak. Maka pergilah savings ku seperti debu, dibawa angin realiti dan tak kembali lagi. Spent $500!!! for laptop iCry a river. On the bright side, Syukran for I am able to taste the sweetness and experience the awesomeness of ukhuwah. Trimass Anne and Rehan teman cari leptop :')
At the same time, commitments taught me how it's like to be ikhlas and what it feels like to be one of 'them'. But still, aku tak pernah faham macam mana those 'good people' are able to stay committed to dakwah.

Next on the list, Sydney ! Not forgetting Canberra ! My very first winter getaway was FANTAWESOME! except for the cold weather of course. Never had a road trip before and I am so lucky to experience it. Melawat nature is always a good idea :D
Nah sis payung gambar sikit

See that guy, he's good looking rite? huhu.
Dah last class baru nak bercakap ngan aku sampai hati huuhuu. Dasar.

Final Exam Sem 1

Winter Getaway 2015

Okay itu sahaja buat tatapan yang merindui.

Sekian dari Juno untuk post kali ini.

Final Exam 1st Semester

The past few weeks have been the worst week for me here. Struggling with these courses (especially stats !) makes me wanna cry, almost ALMOST ! (lol like really juno??! kat tgb yg lagi horror tu pon takde la sampai nak nangis haha) Tengok carry mark... Aduhai aduhai aduhai sayangggg. Kemain tutors semua bagi harapan pelesu. Good job la da da da last last markah lab report segitu je jugak, duh. Kalau nak ikutkan these negative vibes memang tak boleh nak pergi because I am such a negative person all these while and that's what makes me today. Luckily, I have my sahabat around that are willing to listen to my sorrow and poof! the negativity disperse into thin air lol god like some of them are so positive i dont know how can they be like that seriously optimistic.
Kata2 semangat from these heaven-mates of mine lols:
"Jangan belajar sebab nak dapat band tinggi2 nanti hg kecewa  teruk bila tak dapat."

"InshaAllah Zati refresh balik niat. Saya pon kene ingatkan diri sendiri gak."

"Kita nak band tinggi tinggi ni nak impress siapa? Tutor ke Allah. Hasbunallah wanikmal wakeel" haa ambik, Ayat ni from dijah padu gils. haha

To see how optimist and strong they can be despite the hardship they've gone thru makes me stronger :') well sort of. But still. juno being juno, peh CUAK GILA nak exam! (but still sempat update blog padahal byk lagi benda nak kene study ) Everyone's target would be band 7 aite? Me too...! Tapi kalau kene kurang 0.5 JE marks out of 13.5 marks for final to achieve 7 (PSYC1030), tak tahu lah nak berharap ke cemana kan yang pasinya kene usaha lah kan aduhai. Subject lain cerita perit lain D':. Masaklah.

Allah knows best who struggles in HIS way and Allah knows best who is wounded in HIS way (Bukhari)
To a more interesting stories on the next post bloggie ciow
p/s: 1st exam is on the 1st day of Ramadhan! may Allah bless us all, Amin,,, ALL THE BEST EXAM GAIS !
Happy Ramadhan peeps.

Ikhlas

Pada suatu malam yang dingin, dua orang sahabat handai telah pulang bersama dari Program Panahan Cinta di Brissy. Sambil berjalan, seorang daripada mereka telah meluahkan perasaan yang telah lama ingin dikongsi bersama sahabatnya itu.

"Hani, hang rasa sempat ke aku nak buat Lab Report ni? aku tak start apa lagi ni. Memang langsung tak tahu lah nak buat apa," keluh sahabat Hani memecah keheningan malam yang sememangnya sunyi ketika itu.

"Sempat... InshaaAllah," jawab Hani ringkas.

"Hang kene guide aku sesatu do nak buat apa dulu semua," ujar sahabat Hani yang kurang puas hati dengan jawapan Hani.

"Boleh. Malam ni satgi kita try buat," kata Hani tenang.

"Hm.. Thanks Hani. Sebenarnya aku dah target dah nak at least buat satu part lab report ni semalam, tapi tetibe tak sempat pulak." sambung si sahabat lagi.

"Awat?," tanya Hani sepatah.

"Entah lah, aku rasa masa aku banyak terbuan buat door gift bebagai tu. Seminggu kot work out utk buat 180 coklats tu.. Pastu nak buat laminated messages tu lagi pastu aku sorang hampir semua benda" keluh sahabat Hani mendatar.

"Oh ye ke.. laa awat hang buat sorang?"

"Entahlah. Susah nak kata. Tapikan, bila tengok reaction semua orang appreciate door gift tadi aku rasa sebak plus terharu pulak sebab diorang suka, and ada yang kata messages tu menyedarkan diorang." ujar sahabat Hani lagi

Hani diam, menjadi pendengar setia setiap bait kata dan memberi peluang sahabatnya berbicara lagi seakan faham akan sikap sahabatnya itu.

"And aku rasa bagus lah tadi masa meeting si Izzat ingatkan balik pasal ikhlas.." si sahabat memecah kesunyian.

"Yang mana? yang walaupun sikit tapi kalau ikhlas benda tu jadi besar dan kalau besar tapi tak ikhlas jadi rugi tu ke?" balas Hani laju.

"Haah. Rasa nak nangis bila reflect diri sendiri balik. Rasa kecewa dengan diri sendiri yang senang sangat mengeluh dan fikir benda yang sepatutnya jadi kebaikan sebagai beban," sesal si sahabat.

"Hmmm. aku pon sebenarnya tak tahu sangat apa aku buat sebagai bendahari," balas Hani dengan niat meredakan kekusutan sahabatnya itu.

"Oh. haha. Hang ada gak tolong aku kan. Ok la tu, as long as ikhlas kan. Hmm. aku tak nak rugi Hani. Sia sia je penat aku selama ni kalau macam tu."

"Laa awat hg fikir macam tu? haha hmm jangan fikir macam tu lagi ah."

"Hmm teruk kan aku. each time buat benda alah semua tu aku duk fikir , 'hmm apa aku buat ni, lab report tak sentuh lagi..' , Tapi aku rasa aku dah ikhlas kot sekarang. hmm ", rapu si sahabat lagi.

Masing - masing senyap dan membiarkan angin malam berbicara.

"Hmm aku cuba ikhlaskan semua ni.." ujar sahabat Hani lagi, memujuk hati.

"Hmm Ikhlas tu tak nampak."

That night sahabat Hani knows that it was Hani all along and she's lucky to have Hani who always reminds her of Allah.

Wallahualam.
*excuse my karangan it's been a long time*

So Long

Howwissitgoinmate? (cuz australians just love to make a whole bunch of words as one lel)

May peace be upon you  :) whoever chugais may be.

Life has been hard for me here except for those awesome vacations and happy days i guess.

Currently have problems w my roomate and so called bestfriend. (I know I shouldn't be posting about things like dis here but i dont know how else. Please dont read this post gais excuse me nak jadi gila jap). Idk why I always feel that it is never possible for me to be of the same room w her in another one year and a half. I am so cruel rite yeah i know but I just cant. I am probably the most inhumane and baddest bitch of all. I have tried so hard to not think this way tho but aaaaaaaaiiiiiii dont know what else to do to avoid these inevitable things god knows what from happening excuse me for being keling I just cant stand dis stressful days no moreeeeeeeee. Was it just me ? Aku ke yg jadi masalah aku ke yg bermasalah apa niiii

I know right form the start that this will eventually happen like those days in intec and I should have followed my heart to be far from this mess , far from her cuz I always aware that we're not meant to be living together and we fake like a lot I can feel it and I know she feels the same that sometimes I question myself 'was she being sincere ?' 'was her concern towards me real or is there any mutual benefit that she seeks for from being nice?' 'what am I to her?' People said that we're best friend. Why cant we be like one? Or are we actually best friends? this is madnesssssssss 

enough of this mess I miss home. till we meet again bloggie.

Hm sedihnya. Rindunya rumah. Rindunya semua orang.

Ya Allah save me. D: