Friday, 22 May 2015

Ikhlas

Pada suatu malam yang dingin, dua orang sahabat handai telah pulang bersama dari Program Panahan Cinta di Brissy. Sambil berjalan, seorang daripada mereka telah meluahkan perasaan yang telah lama ingin dikongsi bersama sahabatnya itu.

"Hani, hang rasa sempat ke aku nak buat Lab Report ni? aku tak start apa lagi ni. Memang langsung tak tahu lah nak buat apa," keluh sahabat Hani memecah keheningan malam yang sememangnya sunyi ketika itu.

"Sempat... InshaaAllah," jawab Hani ringkas.

"Hang kene guide aku sesatu do nak buat apa dulu semua," ujar sahabat Hani yang kurang puas hati dengan jawapan Hani.

"Boleh. Malam ni satgi kita try buat," kata Hani tenang.

"Hm.. Thanks Hani. Sebenarnya aku dah target dah nak at least buat satu part lab report ni semalam, tapi tetibe tak sempat pulak." sambung si sahabat lagi.

"Awat?," tanya Hani sepatah.

"Entah lah, aku rasa masa aku banyak terbuan buat door gift bebagai tu. Seminggu kot work out utk buat 180 coklats tu.. Pastu nak buat laminated messages tu lagi pastu aku sorang hampir semua benda" keluh sahabat Hani mendatar.

"Oh ye ke.. laa awat hang buat sorang?"

"Entahlah. Susah nak kata. Tapikan, bila tengok reaction semua orang appreciate door gift tadi aku rasa sebak plus terharu pulak sebab diorang suka, and ada yang kata messages tu menyedarkan diorang." ujar sahabat Hani lagi

Hani diam, menjadi pendengar setia setiap bait kata dan memberi peluang sahabatnya berbicara lagi seakan faham akan sikap sahabatnya itu.

"And aku rasa bagus lah tadi masa meeting si Izzat ingatkan balik pasal ikhlas.." si sahabat memecah kesunyian.

"Yang mana? yang walaupun sikit tapi kalau ikhlas benda tu jadi besar dan kalau besar tapi tak ikhlas jadi rugi tu ke?" balas Hani laju.

"Haah. Rasa nak nangis bila reflect diri sendiri balik. Rasa kecewa dengan diri sendiri yang senang sangat mengeluh dan fikir benda yang sepatutnya jadi kebaikan sebagai beban," sesal si sahabat.

"Hmmm. aku pon sebenarnya tak tahu sangat apa aku buat sebagai bendahari," balas Hani dengan niat meredakan kekusutan sahabatnya itu.

"Oh. haha. Hang ada gak tolong aku kan. Ok la tu, as long as ikhlas kan. Hmm. aku tak nak rugi Hani. Sia sia je penat aku selama ni kalau macam tu."

"Laa awat hg fikir macam tu? haha hmm jangan fikir macam tu lagi ah."

"Hmm teruk kan aku. each time buat benda alah semua tu aku duk fikir , 'hmm apa aku buat ni, lab report tak sentuh lagi..' , Tapi aku rasa aku dah ikhlas kot sekarang. hmm ", rapu si sahabat lagi.

Masing - masing senyap dan membiarkan angin malam berbicara.

"Hmm aku cuba ikhlaskan semua ni.." ujar sahabat Hani lagi, memujuk hati.

"Hmm Ikhlas tu tak nampak."

That night sahabat Hani knows that it was Hani all along and she's lucky to have Hani who always reminds her of Allah.

Wallahualam.
*excuse my karangan it's been a long time*

Saturday, 18 April 2015

So Long

Howwissitgoinmate? (cuz australians just love to make a whole bunch of words as one lel)
May peace be upon you  :) whoever chugais may be.

Life has been hard for me here except for those awesome vacations and happy days i guess.

Currently have problems w my roomate and so called bestfriend. (I know I shouldn't be posting about things like dis here but i dont know how else. Please dont read this post gais excuse me nak jadi gila jap). Idk why I always feel that it is never possible for me to be of the same room w her in another one year and a half. I am so cruel rite yeah i know but I just cant. I am probably the most inhumane and baddest bitch of all. I have tried so hard to not think this way tho but aaaaaaaaiiiiiii dont know what else to do to avoid these inevitable things god knows what from happening excuse me for being keling I just cant stand dis stressful days no moreeeeeeeee. Was it just me ? Aku ke yg jadi masalah aku ke yg bermasalah apa niiii
I know right form the start that this will eventually happen like those days in intec and I should have followed my heart to be far from this mess , far from her cuz I always aware that we're not meant to be living together and we fake like a lot I can feel it and I know she feels the same that sometimes I question myself 'was she being sincere ?' 'was her concern towards me real or is there any mutual benefit that she seeks for from being nice?' 'what am I to her?' People said that we're best friend. Why cant we be like one? Or are we actually best friends? this is madnesssssssss 

enough of this mess I miss home. till we meet again bloggie.
Hm sedihnya. Rindunya rumah. Rindunya semua orang.
Ya Allah save me. D: 


Thursday, 12 February 2015

Driving Licence The Finale

See that title?? Can chugais guess what is this post for ? Iyyyepp!
ALHAMDULILLAH ALL PRAISES TO HIM I FINALLY PASSED THE TEST !

Lucky number 2 ^^V hihihi. Lega dia tak payah cite ah. Mengalahkan lega lulus test IELTS ! It took me about 3 moths for today (10/2) orang lain 1 month jaaaa. Ya Allah I went thru A LOT. Gained so many experiences. Met so many people (and we did exchange phone numbers too). I would say driving class is fun as long as your cikgu is baik like an angel and berkesabaran setinggi langit. Ha, serius ni. Kalau dapat cikgu chillax cam ni memang untung ah. I act kinda lucky tho sbb JPJ tu finally luluskan je aku yg mengulang test ni walaupun minggu lepas (1/2) dia tak cool tak lek plus tak berhati perut langsung. And Alhamdulillah everything went pretty well that day weeee.
Blergh. I still dont kinda like those jpjs hdakjdsakl but well thank you for letting me and sorry not sorry for what I've wrote abt chugais okay.. Wow on a second thot maybe I can write a novel about me getting my P and about this damn driving class tests thing ! Banyak boleh tulis ni. Hm. But I'm too layzyyahh for that. Blame my watch cuz he gave me no time and I aint got no time for my novel meh.

Wednesday, 4 February 2015

Driving Licence Part III

How I wish the third entry of this driving stuff could end with me getting my P alr. But yeah truth hurts so much these days. I can never forget those silly shiezz* mistakes I made and they keep  on hunting me without fail days and nights :( Fobia teruk do. Bencinyaaaaaaaa
Currently tengah cuba nak build up balik semangat nak amik lesen and try not to think about this shiezzss. Dengan serabut mara bagi duit lambatnya (ah kau memang asyik nak mengeluh je kan manusia bersyukur sikit sbb dapat fly!) Tak boleh chill la macam manaaaa  >.<
Above all, I srsly need to be happy cuz I only got less than 10 days at homeee hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Aw snap !