Fall time Sadness.

she's been there for about 3 days. syukurillah she's safe,and living healthily and happily rite now. having a great conversation with her just now. thanks skype.

everything was out of blue, without any clear and well-planned blueprint earlier. she even said that "aku buat keputusan ni within 5 minutes je kot. lepas aku kate setuju, terus ibu abah book tiket"

i even knew about this (she's leaving home,this country) 3 days before she's off to egypt. *dek kerana terperangkap di intec*
i'm aware of all that. that after this, my relationship with her my one and only elder sister, will never be the same again. 6 years kot. macam ulang balik sekolah rendah.. banyak boleh berlaku.. balik balik je dari sana nanti she's 26. wic is the most suitable age to have someone called husband to take care of her instead of her family. sedih ahhh.. time tu mesti kiteorang akan lagi jaoh..

i know that she's aware of everything; about her safety, about her life, of deciding to further her study there. she's the strongest person i've ever lived with. dia memang kakak. i mean dia sangat kakak. that's why she was born as the first child instead of me. it touched me sebab dalam sibuk memikirkan masa depan dia,hidup mati die (negara tu bergolak kot) die sempat lagi fikir pasal kebajikan adik2 die.. :'l tetibe tringat segala jasa dan pengorbanan die when were both in intec. every week, she'll definitely send me foods and even money (time tu elaun mara tak masuk lagi..) selalu buat aku terharu lebih.. and she never ask me to pay her back whenever i promised her that i'll pay everything back.. (gehh..)

okay. enough with all that. anyway, kiteorang satu family lain kot. dari ibu abah hinggalah ke alys, langsung tak nangis time kat airport. (okay, i have to admit that air mata aku memang dah bergenang time peluk along for the last time but still, tak setitis pon yg jatuh) along apa tah lagi, paling rilek. steady je lambai..

so yeah. to my beloved sis, sorry, i really didnt mean what i have said earlier, (to not sending you to airport) tu saje je. jangan ambil hati. aku tau kite cool.. jaga diri, jangan tinggal solat fardu. teruskan dengan amalan sunat kau selama ni... i'll always respect everything that u did. jangan lupa kami kat sini, yg sentiasa risau, and semoga kau dapat capai cita2 kau.. love you for sure, long. :'/
till we meet again next 6 years.. miss you much.